Examples of Confusion
An uncut woman
is not a clean woman,
the nurse translated, meant to say
the doctor needs to open you up
the stitches were done too tight, everything
will be okay.
say meant to but said mada hishod haysanin:
don’t you have no shame?
The scar healed wrong,
layers of skin grew but never closed it up.
You should feel ashamed of
what they don’t know.
He’s always on the ward for dying patients
how does he make it past the Angel of Death each night?
It feels awkward
to use my full name,
it’s too immigrant to say out loud.
They argued on what to call me,
he wanted a name that I couldn’t run away from,
she wanted a three dimensional one.
Said I was her Luul,
carved and sculpted in the womb, too precious
to let go.
She gave in.
The drive to Heathrow was grey.
Somehow Londoners call this summer,
they don’t know that warmth is in colour.
Why does leaving feel like the coast, bare?
Mum’s laugh is recorded
over Zainab’s wedding tape.